Happiness is what I fear
Happiness
is what I fear. Too many years of broken promises and dismissed tears to stand
high on a mountain top and cheer. Happiness is what I fear.
Fresh
memories of being enslaved and abused for centuries, allowing broken pieces of levity to be the defining
moments before it’s the end of me…Happiness is what I fear
Eliminating
the chances of ever coming back, with a hatred that boils and a heart that’s
black, Relax!
Happiness
is what I fear. Maybe I fear everything I hold dear, push it away, seclude
myself, hide in the darkness, and release red tears.
My patience
is my grace, and the foul taste of madness has been overcome with the
bitterness and sadness, formed out to a story that’s far gone and tragic and
leads me to thoughts I never would have thought mattered.
My heart
worn and tattered, emotions heavily bruised and battered, whipped, not broken,
hurt and severely fractured.
Lord this
pain…It wouldn’t hurt for it to happen again.
So I repeat
the cycle because I couldn’t learn the first time and didn’t have the right to.
So as the
world sits in anticipation of what I might do, I know, with the boundaries that
are in place, I couldn’t do what I’d like to.
So I’ll
display my anger after, after I enjoy the sweet scent of amorous chatter, this
could lead to everything I’ve ever dreamed or sought after.
Yes, this
feels like a maze, but I’m stuck in amazement, and I lean toward the millions
that reside on the pavement.
So humble
and meek, my soul feels heavy and it pulls to the weak.
I believe
I’ve been set aside for a particular time to wait and watch for a particular
sign
And now
that I know, my fear has put me at a comfort level that I hold so dear.
I look
around the room and know that He’s near! Yes, I understand….
Happiness is
here.
Wow... this is amazing. Its like you've lived my life. I'm sincerely impressed. Beautiful. Thank you.
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